So I probably should be sleeping now, even though its only midnight, but I have to get up somewhat early for work tomorrow. I cant sleep. Anyways, my friends from school are coming to visit me this weekend and I am beyond excited!!!!! Last week was sorta difficult for me, and I really need my friends!!!!!! And one of my friends is having some issues herself, so they need me too (= I just cant wait to see them again and have it be like old times!!! And Gloria also told me it would be good for me if I reconnected with college friends in the summer, soo... added bonus! But anyhow, since last week was so tough and my emotions are pretty much going crazy, its getting really tough not to cut. I havent cut since May 26th and I want to stay cut-free at least until my friends come. I want them to be proud of me and I'd hate for them to feel disappointed or concerned. And let me tell you it was ridiculous last week, you dont even know how many times I just wanted to do it. And this may sound completely depressing, but I am also running out of places. My old scars are already sooo noticeable so I need to stop cutting in such obvious places I guess... Anyways, I meet with Gloria again on Wednesday so maybe I'll ask her what I can do to stop myself. A friend suggested cutting a piece of wood. I think it's brilliant! But unfortunately I havent gotten any wood (thats what she said! haha) but I suppose that is my fault. Nevertheless, the weekend is only a few days away and I am pumped!!!!! We only have the weekend so we are going to try and pack as much stuff in as possible! I will try and keep you posted until then, and definitely after!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
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