Why am I feeling like this right now? All I feel like doing is sleeping, and just waiting for the next time I am going to hurt myself. Just waiting for time to pass. Things get better in time right? so for now im just waiting to get to when its alright and when I don’t feel like shit anymore. When I don’t feel like all im doing is waiting til the next time I get to cut myself. this is going to sound ridiculously strange, but when i started this blog i said i would be real and not hold back. but anyways back to the ridiculous...it feels good. it feels good to hurt myself again. for the months that i was still with Ian i had only cut myself 3 times. and since our breakup...a little over a week ago that number has multiplied to almost 5 times that. its scary...but it feels nice.
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