This or that.

I feel so confused right now.

And insecure.

Am I happy? Or not...

I will say that I think I have been happier lately. I think.

I hate that so often a boy will determine my mood. happy. sad. depressed.

It shouldn't be that way. I mean shouldn't I be secure all on my own?

So.

Am I happy because I am with someone right now?

Or are the meds finally kicking in?

Or am I in the good part, the part that comes right before the bad, ugly part. It comes in waves.

I just dont know.

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